Last year was supremely difficult, creatively speaking. My ongoing health issues got even more complicated, with new symptoms requiring new medications, and overall I felt really defeated. It took a toll on me physically, and ended up triggering a lot of mental fallout as well. Writing under those circumstances was almost impossible.
As we go into the fall this year, though, I’m finally feeling a sense of renewed creative energy. Some of this is down to some changes in medications and learning how to deal with some of my new physical challenges, but the biggest change is that I’ve found a new writing space.
I have always wanted to write. But writing is work, and for most people, you have to treat it that way. You need to set aside time and space to commit to getting it done. One of the things we sacrificed in our move to downtown was our home office, which makes writing at home even more difficult. I used to do a good deal of my writing from bed (out of necessity sometimes), but there were inevitably distractions that would make it hard to concentrate.
It hasn’t helped that I have been struggling with depression since I officially retired and became fully disabled — depression due to my lack of direction and identity. I needed a reason to get up and get dressed in the morning. I also underestimated, when I moved in with my husband, how much I would miss having my own space — something that was mine alone.
I realized that what I needed to feel like a whole person again was to find a creative space, commit to finishing all the projects that had been in limbo, and hopefully find a way to re-establish a professional identity for myself.
It took a bit of searching to find a space that fit the bill (and the budget), but I’ve been really pleased with the amount of work I’ve gotten done so far (and it’s only been two weeks!).
What I’m working on / coming soon:
- A book of poetry and essays on counter-culture subjects called: “I’Mmoral”. It is 98% complete and I hope to have it published and available for sale in the next month (the ebook version should be ready in the next few weeks, with the paperback version taking a bit longer due to proofs and distribution, etc.).
- A compote cookbook! You can catch up on my recipes in progress at Compote is My Jam. I would like to finish this one and have it available for sale in time for Christmas.
- A memoir focusing on my childhood stories of abuse and mental illness. I’m about half-way through writing this one, so my tentative goal is to have it complete by early 2016.
- A re-imagined work of Oedipus Rex (fiction novel), hopefully to be completed by late 2016.
- I will continue to blog here, at Cuckoo My Cuckoo, as well as on my transgender/androgynous lifestyle blog, That’s My AgendA.
I have sincerely appreciated the support of my blog readers and those who have purchased my existing books. If you might consider further support to help me subsidize the cost of my writing space, I would be super grateful!
It’s tough being a writer, period (most people don’t make enough from their writing to make ends meet), but being a disabled writer is even tougher. I really don’t have any other options in terms of working. I’d like to think, as well, that my writing adds something to the world and has value on it’s own.
I have set up a page over at Patreon, where supporters can sponsor me for as low as $1 a month. Rather than set it up with walled access to content (I believe content should be accessible — I want you to read my writing!), what I might do instead is set up a Thank You or Sponsors page here on my blog where I can put your name (or avatar name) showing that you are one of my awesome patrons. Please consider sponsoring me here:
Thanks so much! Without readers, being a writer is pretty boring, so you’re the best part of my day!