Things That Are Making Me Anxious Right This Second

IMG_1785-EFFECTSaka. I HAVE PLANS
(p.s. This is only an example… it could really be anything at any given moment)

I am worried because I have plans for later today.

I am worried that something will come up and I will have to cancel those plans.

I am worried that maybe those plans already got cancelled and no one told me.

I am worried that maybe I got the day wrong and those plans aren’t today anyway.

I am worried that maybe I got the day right but it’s a prank and people are going to make me look foolish in some way.

I am worried that I never had those plans in the first place and somehow dreamt them up.

I am worried that if I go I will have to be around other people.

I am worried that I will say or do something to embarrass myself.

I am worried that I will say or do something to hurt or embarrass someone else.

I am worried that I will not know whether to take off my shoes or not.

I am worried that once I do take off my shoes and I will be cold and my feet will be numb.

I am worried that their house will be cold and I will be cold and I will get sick.

I am worried that I won’t wear the right clothes and I will be cold and I will get sick.

I am worried that I am already sick.

My jaw hurts.

My head hurts.

My heart is beating too quickly. I am worried that it is beating wrong.

I am worried that no one likes me.

I am worried that people pretend to like me but talk about me behind my back.

I am worried that anyone who thinks they like me just doesn’t know me well enough.

I feel tired and I want to sleep. I want to take a nap to calm down.

I am too worried to sleep. I am worried I will oversleep and miss my plans. I am worried my alarm won’t go off.

I am worried I didn’t get enough sleep from my nap and now I am more anxious and I’m worried I’m too tired for my plans.

I’m worried that I’m not spending enough time with my pets. I’m worried about leaving them alone.

I’m worried that if I take the car I will get into an accident. I’m worried I’ll hit someone else. I’m worried that I will suddenly and uncontrollably drive head-on into a traffic barrier and die.

I’m worried if I take the bus, I will miss the bus. I’m worried if I take the bus, I will have to talk to someone. I’m worried that my bus pass will be rejected. I’m worried there won’t be any seats left. I’m worried I’ll get hurt because standing on the bus with a cane is difficult. I’m worried the bus will get into an accident.

I’m worried that people will see how anxious I am. I’m worried I’ll start shaking. I’m worried that I’ll cry. I’m worried that I’ll run to the bathroom and not come out. I’m worried that they’ll think I’m a crazy person. I’m worried that they’ll KNOW I’m a crazy person.

I am worried that I have to cancel my plans RIGHT NOW because I CAN’T GO because I am TOO ANXIOUS and I need the anxiety to STOP RIGHT NOW before it is time to leave.

I am worried that by not going, they’ll be angry and they won’t trust me and they won’t invite me again.

I’m worried that they will.

/rk

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